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Snook & Forever Love

Just came back not too long ago from a session of snooker with the Hennessy guys. Ryan and Kong to be exact. Played a few games to kill the boredom that's been looming for quite sometime. If anyone's up for pool or snooker, I'm a call away. Always been a fan of these two games. The thrill of getting balls into pockets (sounds pathetic but true and a bit obscene as well) is just dwelling enough to get me go Moo-Moo like the cows.

I stared at myself at the mirror for quite sometime while Lee Hom's Forever Love is playing on my laptop. I'm not too sure whether you guys have heard of this song but the lyrics are really meaningful. My favourite line is the first line of the song. I started asking myself thousands of questions then that I myself can't find the exact answers to. All I could do is being judgemental about it and give my best shot to actually clear out the unclear. Basically, just come out with my own opinion about almost anything and everything I can think of. So much for logics and sense. Pretty stupid but safe.

Been sleeping really late or should I say early in the morning. I think it's going to be my sleeping ritual soon unless I find something that could make me stop doing it. And I know what it is but I cant seem to grasp them in my hands yet. Hopefully, when everything goes well I will be much more of a happier person and not fake it out just to show people that I'm okay. Haven't prayed much but I remembered doing it when I was drunk like hell last week. That was really the day.

Talking about it, I got myself really drunk from drinking with the customers. I had more than 10 shots or cognac (Hennessy) mix and on the rocks. I thought I could handle it but I guess I was wrong. When work was over I started feeling dizzy and queasy. Got to the car and started puking like mad. Moments later I was crying. I cried it all out. The stress and problems that were long built up were all expressed when I cried. It was nothing to be proud of but it made me feel a little better after. *Sigh*...and I blurted some stuff which I wasn't suppose to. I must have had them up to my neck. Too painful even to scream at so crying was the next best option. It worked! Although, I should practice on the screaming where first of all I need to find the spot to do so. The last time I screamed while I covered a pillow over my mouth. Not so good of an idea but it wasn't too bad.

I don't know why I am telling all this. Probably for me to recall back in the near future perhaps. Whatever...I'm feeling much better now that I've let it all out once again.

Time to go to bed and wish for a dream that could make me go Moo-Moo forever. Cheers to Lee Hom!

posted by ixovelle @ 5/12/2005 06:15:00 AM