Thursday, June 29, 2006

The Wedding...


24th June 2006: The sweet couple after the wedding mass.

Hmm, I wonder when is it going to be my turn? Ohiok ohiok ohiok!

posted by ixovelle @ 6/29/2006 03:53:00 AM 0 comments


24th June 2006: Before wedding dinner.

The three of us just couldn't help ourselves from admiring the flower arch behind us. Pink...purple...pink...S.W.E.E.T! lol

posted by ixovelle @ 6/29/2006 03:31:00 AM 0 comments


24th June 2006 : Group picture after the wedding dinner.

Where's the bride? FYI the beautiful bride is standing at the last row wearing a purple dress.

posted by ixovelle @ 6/29/2006 03:04:00 AM 0 comments

A Sad Story...

A sad story....

It's 3 minutes to 1.30am in the morning. Not asleep, mind hay wired. There has been a few things that are going through my head. Thinking of ways to find suitable solutions but every time I start, I'm always stuck at the beginning. It's hard to let go. I've told a few of my closest friends and what they've shared with me makes a whole lot of sense. Of course I get all sorts of advices and suggestions but with the stubbornness in me just never seemed to be able to accept them. I have tried, probably a little too much but I know I fought hard.

She (a friend) said it happened out of my expectation which is true. And when I expect it to go further, it backfired. Instead of going forward, it went backwards. Why? This time, I am honest and I'm straightforward. It didn't work as well. Maybe the problem is not with me. Maybe it's with him. Maybe, probably, might be...who knows?

Hmm...I wonder if I scared him off? The last words he said was short and painful. Gradually, as the days go by there weren't any more calls and no more messages. Then, I'm drunk again and so I cried. When I do, I asked myself why because I wanted an answer. Who am I kidding? There's only one person who can answer my question. And that person of course, is him...

Miles away, on the same ground on earth I put myself the faith in him. Not knowing whether it is a dumb thing to do, I'm also even praying for him. To be safe and to live life in happiness. So now, I depend on time to heal and lots of comfort from people around me.

I got an answer. I refused to acknowledge it because there wasn't any explanation. Probably it don't even matter now because with those few words he told me is enough to make me stop from hoping. I don't blame him, for I believe him. I just hope that he didn't manipulate my trust for his own purpose.

Now, all I wished for is for him to start calling and messaging me again. I miss those times. The surprises and the moments we had were too valuable to be left as just memories. From what I know he has the biggest impact in my life and he knows it.

This time, I'll pray for my next wish to come true...

posted by ixovelle @ 6/29/2006 01:34:00 AM 0 comments