Feeling sentimental anyone?
At this moment, I have a bar of choco (extra fine milk pralines)... a cup of coffee and a whole list of jazz playing in my winamp.
*smile*
Sigh.......!
Currently, it's still Jamie Cullum and soon it's gonna be Michael Buble. Yeay! They're gonna jazz my room up. I feel so honoured. Singing only for me tonight and one on one in my room. *smiles* (ALERT! this is what too much of romance movies can do to you - please do NOT try this at home unless if you're wiling to take risks!)
And yes, I'm in my sentimental mood. It's really weird how jazz could make me feel this way. Not that I'm a die hard fan of jazz but seriously...it has been unimaginable. I feel like wearing a nice dress and start dancing. Get a romantic partner and have a romantic dance all... through... the night...sigh! For your info...ever since the music started playing, like say an hour ago I've been smiling so much that I think my face formed dimples which I once used to have. Hold on.! Just to reconfirm, lemme check in the mirror.
*trod trod trod*
*screaming can be heard*
*back on pc*
Dang...I've been ripped off. I thought I got back my dimples but instead I have bits of choco on my face! Argh...
Anyways, I think I should be enjoying my night today since I will have restless nights to come.
Any of you feeling lonely, I suggest you try my method. Although it doesn't last, at least it works. *wink*
Went FCM Nite feeling unwell.
Phew...
Just came back from FCM Nite. It was ok, so-so, nothing interesting although I must say that James Baum is so cute!!! I think that's how u spell his name. He came and made a performance of a few songs. Um...He sang Mario Winans' I Don't Wanna Know and Usher's You Got It Bad. Not bad! Not bad! Sumore he's cuteeeee. Oh yeah, if I got the name wrong tag me, yeah?
Everyone was busy taking shots of each other in their so pretty/glamorous and smart attires. Not to say I'm against it but the camera flashes are making me even dizzy-er and my eyes hurt. Probably it's because I'm sick. I almost thought of not going for the nite becoz when I woke up this afternoon, I felt my head was ready to explode and my body aching all over. When I tried to open the bottle cap of a mineral bottle, I barely could make it. My muscles were aching like mad.
I was already giving up. I know I'm really really sick this time. It will be a sin if I don't go for the Nite becoz I spent soooo... much on it. And so I told myself, proly I take an hour nap, hopefully I'll feel better.
Got up, showered and dressed. Head off to J.W Marriott. Everything was fine until halfway during dinner. The headache came back. Then when the nite was over, my muscles started to ache and I can feel my breath really warm as I breathe out. This is it!!! Confirm I sick!!! Kim, Abs and the rest thought of going Rum Jungle. I wanted to go but then again I decided not to. It will probably make things worse. So I 'hitched' a ride from Jo to go home and the funniest thing was there were 7 of us in the car. It was ok...didn't misplace any bones. But it was near hell. At least, I get to go home. Oh yeah, sumore got road block, but we managed to go past. Ehehe!
That was it. Now I'm home. I just wanna finish this up, wash up and then take some medication and go off to sleep. Most proly will go see a doc tmrw. I think I should. But I don't really like going to the docs. Sigh!
Time for me to buzz off.
~Buzzzz~
I feel like I'm a stoic
Oh man, I think my blog is starting to turn into one of those lyrics websites.
Don't worry!! It's not going to! Not anytime soon or later or forever. Just wanna share songs that I really like and how the lyrics are really giving an exact meaning to how I'm experiencing my feelings currently.
Very disturbing and very intriguing at the same time. Like Alanis' Uninvited song...I felt like I'm the Stoic...squirming but of course no one's watching coz I don't think I would like ppl to watch me do it. It probably will be unsightly and maybe to some, fun to be dazzled at. And I bet I know who would think so. ABU HATIM!!! Ehehehe...then after 5 minutes watching me he'll start worrying. Proly would send me to some psychiatric hospital in his good ol Betty (Maybe not so good anymore - pls update me on ur Betty tim!).
(*Phone ringing)
BRB...............................
Hmm, my ex from Taiwan just called. Couldn't say anything much coz I'm coughing a lot. It gets worse when I try to speak. No special topic. He'd called me up sometimes and ask me how am I treating life. Basically, keeping each other updated. He's my first ex. Dun misunderstood though. I don't have the same feelings towards him like I used to 5 years ago. Those were the days. Not that I had much fun. (*roll eyes)
It's late!!
(Clock on the laptop shows it's 4.33AM)
Should be sleeping by now. Kinda excited bout tmrw nite. Hopefully all of the final year students are going. It would be sad if some are left out. Oh yeah, it's FCM (Faculty of Creative Multimedia) Nite tmrw. Not that all of us gonna be working in the same firm or in the same line in future. So I guess tmrw nite will be the time we all could gather talk talk, laugh laugh, and maybe do sumthing stupid because there isn't actually anymore classes going on in campus. It's so funny how when it only gets to the final year, almost everyone will start to mingle more with unknown existence fellow mates and talk like we've known each other for ages. Ironic..but I guess it happens to most of the other faculties or universities as well. And mind you...remembering names at the very last minute is NOT GOOD! Especially for a person who is absent minded as I am.
Anyways, I think I should be off to sleep. Gonna have lunch with Kim sumwhere and alter her dress for the nite.
(*Put both hands together and pray)
"I hope to have a beautiful dream later"
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~ZzzZzzZZz~
Ooh...I so love this song.
FIONA APPLE - Paper Bag
I was staring at the sky, just looking for a star
To pray on, or wish on, or something like that
I was having a sweet fix of a daydream of a boy
Whose reality I knew, was a hopeless to be had
But then the dove of hope began its downward slope
And I believed for a moment that my chances
Were approaching to be grabbed
But as it came down near, so did a weary tear
-I thought it was a bird, but it was just a paper bag
-Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
Cuz I know I’m a mess he don’t wanna clean up
I got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold
-Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love
And I went crazy again today, looking for a strand to climb
Looking for a little hope
Baby said he couldn’t stay, wouldn’t put his lips to mine,
And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope
I said, ‘Honey, I don’t feel so good, don’t feel justified
Come on put a little love here in my void,’
- he said‘It’s all in your head,’ and I said, ‘So’s everything’
-But he didn’t get it
- I thought he was a manBut he was just a little boy
-Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
Cuz I know I’m a mess he don’t wanna clean up
I got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold
-Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love
-Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
Cuz I know I’m a mess he don’t wanna clean up
I got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold
-Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love
Another one of my fav songs
ALANIS MORISSETTE - Uninvited
Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
Like any hot blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you, you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight
Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shepard meet shepard
But you, you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight
Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced love like mine before
But this is not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight
I don't think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate
My ol time fav R&B
JOE - I Wanna Know
Yeah, oh yeah
Alright, oh, oh, oh
It's amazing how you knock me off my feet, hmm
Everytime you come around me I get weak, oh yeah
Nobody ever made me feel this way, oh
You kiss my lips and then you take my breath away
So I wanna know
[1] - I wanna know what turns you on
So I can be all that and more
I'd like to know what makes you cry
So I can be the one who always makes you smile
Girl he never understood what you were worth, hmm no
And he never took the time to make it work
(You deserve more loving, girl)
Baby I'm the kind of man who shows concern, yes I do, oh
Anyway that I can please you let me learn
So I wanna know
[Repeat 1]
[2] - Tell me what I gotta do to please you
Baby anything you say I'll do
Cause I only wanna make you happy
From the bottom of my heart, it's true
[Repeat 2]
I wish that I could take a journey through your mind, alright
And find emotions that you always try to hide babe, oh
I do believe that there's a love you wanna share, oh, oh
I'll take good care of you lady, have no fear, oh
So I wanna know
[Repeat 1]
[Repeat 2 (2x)]
[Repeat 1 till end]
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*Hmm, now where can I get a guy who would actually do all of the stated above for me?
A bunch of crap
Ooga chaka ooga ooga chaka...
Heh...reminded me of my tribal decendants. Imagine the dance that goes with it. Huahua..luckily I wasn't born during those days.
There I go talking crap again. Lamo Mayo....Ayoo [Black American slang (just to be polite)]
Freakin' hell..I've been listening to just Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway and Beautiful Disaster for the WHOLE day. I am getting tired of them but my mind is set to listen to these two songs. I seriously need a revamp. I need to release everything and try to concentrate what is more important now.
*Sneeze*
What a bunch of crap. Yeah...a whole load of shit. Who am I kidding? Thanx to the existence of procrastination. *Knock head* No wonder...It's hollow. DuUuuUuuUuuh!!
My bad my bad, been calling myself stupid these days.
Argh..I talk too much crap
Lame Addiction
I don't wanna press rewind
Never wanna let u back in my life
I live to know that you were a mistake
And I hated the fact I was so blind
"It's ok now" I tell myself
I'm finally realizing
You were just a game I got addicted to
It's all a lame game I've wasted my time on
I'm breathing
The fresh air after a bad round
Cheats I've tried never won me anything
I smiled to myself, so profounded
After all, everything is just another game
No one ever really gain
Sunday, September 26, 2004.3.30am
Smelly tofu anyone?
It's 6.32am on a Monday morn and I'm still up since last night. At this particular moment I'm listening to Chantal Kreviazuk's Leaving On A Jetplane and I'd actually forget how romantic this song could be. Get me to reminisce ol memories. Good but bad at the same time. Then there's Edwin McCain's I'll Be playing next. Sigh...Could imagine myself dancing with my dream guy. Nyeh nyeh nyeh...!
*Back to reality all of the sudden*
Pheyyewww...what's that smell? Yuck! I'm like halfway building castles in the air then all of the sudden there's this terrible odor coming from outside.
*Looks out the window*
The neighbor seems to be up quite early. Heh, maybe the mom is fryin some stinky tofu for breakfast. Man, imagine that. Poor children. I bet when they get to school and during middle of the class, start farting and what not. What's worse is having a wet fart.
*Shakes the thought of the after effect*
Hokayyyy....I think that's about enough. Although, I could go more detailed (Comments? Comments?). Hehe...just kidding. I'm off! Gotta get sum sleep.
Halloween 2004 - The Deranged Girl. Not much of the feel when there's 2 aliens hogging the background.
Phewitt....nice hair! Ohiok ohiok!
To blog or not to...
I was thinking long and hard about having my own blog site.
Few people that I know of have at least one. The day I began to browse blogs was when my housemate - hatim - sent me his blog URL. He sent me a couple of times and I didn't really bother much to check it out. In the end, when I was soooooo bored that I actually felt like biting my toenails (yeah...that bored! when you're bored you'll feel like doing something stupid) I asked for his URL. From that day on I began browsing blogs that belong to friends or friends of friends. The stuff that people can write amuses me and I thought 'Hey...why don't I start one myself? At least, I have something to do although it might not be beneficial'. Just for the heck of it and of course easier to update friends what's hot and what's not in my life. Hehe!
Anyways, that was just an intro to what's coming next. If you wanna be a 'mak kepo', browse anytime you feel like.
Oh yeah...should I actually be celebrating in accordance to my success of having my own blogspot? Hellllll..........................NO! That would be stooopid la. But I'm glad. Thanx tim!
